I'm a poltard anxious loser (please don't judge) who is trying to get involved in an open relationship with a kinky leftist girl (who identifies as a slut). I'm really in love with her; she's also the first female who kissed me in a sensual manner.
Yesterday at the kinky bar she asked me and a "common friend" about our opinion on exclusivity. I think the other guy gave a better opinion than mine: "toxic relationships", "allowing everyone to be happy", "jealousy is terrible", etc. while I babbled something about my consensual cuckoldry fetish and depicted some parts of it. The guy criticized my response, saying its roots are racist, clasist, homophobe and mysoginist. He then talked about the patriarchy and it's there when I realized I was knocked down.
She then proceeded to hug him, make out with him, slap his face and spank him in the sofa we were sitting at, which was awkward and sad yet amusing… For a while I didn't know whether to stay there or to leave the sofa for them both… and I eventualy went to another corner to play chess in my smartphone while keeping a close eye on her.
I'm quite in need of some help, guys. I really really like her, even if she is not in the best shape she is very beautiful, lively and happy. I'm ready to put less emphasis in the kek and the redpill (which hasn't made me happier) and my neo-con/neo-liberal ideology to become closer to her. It's clear to me she is very interested in ideologies.
How could I become more ideologically akin to her? How could I effectively hide my true self from her? I'm very confused at the moment… I think I'm really in love with her and it makes me very sad seeing she might distance from me… I haven't talked to her today yet…
I came to you because I have no-one better to talk to and I was redirected here… I'm experienced enough to expect some of the replies I might get, but this thread is serious.
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